Bella is searching for that special little something that will FINALLY make her feel happy and complete...
She's also always felt a sense of responsibility to Bobby, sometimes more of a parent to him than their actual parents, teaching him things like how to do acceptable eye contact (2 seconds = too short, 5 seconds = too long).
All of this factors into how she defines happy, what she wants for herself, what goals she thinks she can accomplish guilt-free.
Love hurts and this book just brings that to light.
I so wanted to enjoy this one, but it never appealed to me.
The inner self-talk is what got to me in this story.